Memories and Pain

I find echoes, memories of reminders as my thoughts bounce and reverberate down the hallways of my mind and I find hidden memories of what was, in shadowy crevices of constrained and compressed thoughts. These hallways seem to be cavernous spaces while I am one person trying to search and explore something that is far greater than me, but I can’t seem to remember that this is me. It all belongs to me, I created it all and I own it. It is me. Maybe when I accept that I will become more and become whole.

My so called pain is only one part of me, it’s a piece of me and I must embrace It and not be afraid. There is strength in that, accepting it, there is also sacrifice and determination. This pain doesn’t define me, but it is part of me, it does steer me in certain directions. I must become the master of it, to steer my ship in the direction I choose and not the direction I let it, which is the ultimate darkness, the abyss of my soul, the place where nothing dares to tread.

Phoenix

The darkness burns my eyes, it’s shadows seek to enshroud me in their pity. I will ignite and burn away their cloud and emerge as a phoenix cloaked in light. I will burn brighter than the sun and turn all that stands against me to ashes. I pity the weak and the fools who hope to envelope the world in their degenerative ways and they will vanish in an explosion of heat tempered by the resolve of those who suffer under a burden of  tyranny. This world is meant to be one of freedom and peace, of love and of hope. Some say ignorance is bliss, but ignorance is not an excuse and it is not a shield that will protect you from the truth. The truth is that this current world and it’s way of thinking is ending. Greed invested in the suffering of others, pain attributed to the capitalization of human spirit will no longer be permitted. It is time for the attributes of kindness and integrity to take seat and vanquish the hate and fear that infests and spreads like a virus. The thinkers and the movers will fight back against the injustice that is blanketing the land like a cancer. It is time for change and reform, it is time for compassion and generosity of human spirit, it is time for us to rise up and renew the vows of life. Life is a journey, like water rushing through a canyon and it will not be denied, it will carve it’s way through the limestone and bedrock of current ruling human values and erode and dissolve those thoughts and beliefs into a new landscape that is yet to be shaped. I will be there and I will scorch the impenetrable bunkers of diseased and disenfranchised minds so that the seeds of purity of spirit and of skill and forthrightness can take hold and grow into trees of true choice and reform and ability. The darkness will be afraid and cower before the light and sureness of conviction and purpose.

Zombies

Eyes wide awake, but not seeing. Ignorance stalking behind, it’s unbelieving. Glossy eyed and broken backs, walking towards your end unconvinced that there is life burgeoning and erupting from all sides around you.

Yet, they keep walking, swallowing lies as if they contain more sustenance than truth. Lies are easier to swallow, easier to follow. Truth takes effort, but why seek truth when media can force feed you with a diet that engorges you. Fattening you with so much deceit that you can no longer navigate the seemingly narrow path that will lead you to true understanding.

While you may be expanding, your mind is contracting, let others think for you and continue to swallow their refuse. It’s simpler this way right? Remain uninformed and ignorant, thinking for yourself requires pushing back against the walls built up around you that are illusive and require sight. Invisible and indivisible layers built into society that tunnel into the minds of the massive instructing them on how to blindly obey.

Upon this are built structures shining, windows glistening, facades of marble, granite, and gold. Alas the foundations are made of greed and suffering, crumbling immediately with decay, but all that is seen is the ornate beauty. Once inside you are ensnared by opulence and your eyes glisten with wonder as the building and in reality the world falls apart around. So keep your eyes shut, walk around blindly. Become the mindless zombie providing your previous life force to the stagnation of humankind, it’s okay, swallow the shit, tastes good right when it’s mixed with self gratification.